Go faster to live & Slow down to death

When I was younger,

I was not afraid of death.

I didn't mind

if I die tomorrow.


Live for the moment,

Think the rest later,

What was important

was to give life to

the each moment.


There was nothing to be regretted,

as long as I lived for today.

Think about tomorrow

when it comes,

if it comes.


It didn't matter

how long I was going to live.

I had that strength

and energy

to blow everything

in front of me..


Now,

those days have gone.

I sit all alone

in my house.

There's nobody to talk to

to share my sprit with.


I don't know

if I'm satisfied with all,

the life after the separation

from my cursed family.

My departure was the

moment to live

from such a deadlock situation

and I started my new life

and I survived.


It was such a long time ago,

but it seems yesterday

and all comes back to my mind

how I felt

and all my pain inside.


Those days were not my

best time of my life,

but I was trying my best

to survive

and go ahead.


But now,

I get older,

and my strength is dying out.

I had enough with those fights.

Now I don't mind losing the game at all.

That's all different from

long time ago.


After all those years,

I had some

happier moments than these.


Maybe, I'm satisfied with these experiences already.

Maybe, there's no more left on Earth

to push me harder to go to the next stages.

So I may not need to go any further any more..


I'm at the edge of the cliff.

I don't know

which way I may go..