Fairy Dreams..

- Was I in a " Fairy Land " ? -

I don't know..


Maybe I was "the Fairy" ..

Last Friday..

I met a guy yesterday,

at my Brother's place.

He was not there, my brother, on that day.

I was selling my stuff that I bought from Europe..

Then he came later.


We met last Friday on that gig.

He played a music just like I imagined..

Just like I imagined having listened to my "Old Friend's"music,

the guy I know of since I was 16..

It reminded me "His" music recently, just like I was imaging from the Image I had on the leaflet of the month of the live house..

It was such a one of the "coincidences "which have been leading me especially since this spring.. - although "those kind of things often happened to me "before as well.. -


He gave me his contact e-mail ad, 'cause I talked to him after his part of the gig,
and I told him the image I had ,together with the "Vision" of the Artist "Akito Sengoku".

He is French and he was with other French guy.

I talked to him in French, 'cause I heard they were speaking French.

He didn't realize that I spoke to him in French first, but he understood that second time.

It's been for a while that I didn't speak a word of French, but soon we started to talk in English.

He was astonished.

Then I said, this place, is run by my brother, too. and They were surprised. - because they come here often and my brother doesn't speak a word of English.. and we don't look alike "at all" outside.. -

and the other guy talked to my brother and saying " Your sister is pretty. "
and he said " only "My Sister" ? ?", and I said " This is the first time that someone say only me is pretty, because normally people say only "My brother" is good looking. " and I was relief and laugh. - and my brother, too :) -

We didn't talk any further, because another "show" started on that day ..

Live to Tell..

" Live to Tell.. "

Madonna

" I have a tale to tell

Sometimes it gets so hard to hide it well

I was not ready for the fall

Too blind to see the writing on the wall

[Chorus:]

A man can tell a thousand lies

I've learned my lesson well

Hope I live to tell

The secret I have learned, 'till then

It will burn inside of me

I know where beauty lives

I've seen it once, I know the warm she gives

The light that you could never see

It shines inside, you can't take that from me

[chorus]

[2nd Chorus:]

The truth is never far behind

You kept it hidden well

If I live to tell

The secret I knew then

Will I ever have the chance again

If I ran away, I'd never have the strength

To go very far

How would they hear the beating of my heart

Will it grow cold

The secret that I hide, will I grow old

How will they hear

When will they learn

How will they know

[chorus]

[2nd chorus] "

I didn't have any other "beauties"lived in my heart,

but I only had a "secret"to tell..
With the deepest sorrow of my heart..

The reason why losing my memories..

たぶん、あの頃、

わたしに何が本当に起こっていたのか

ぜんぶ覚えていたら

生きられなかったかもしれないから、

それはそれでよかったのかもしれない。。

何故か。

To Live..

わたしはきっと”あの時”に

”それから生きていくため”に、

”生身”の身体に、

”それ”を支えていく為に、”鋼（はがね）”が

入れられたんだと思う。

まっ直ぐ立って”生きていける”ように

きっと。。

折れた骨を支えるようにね。。

Can't believe..

I can't believe that

I slept for 14 hours in a row...

It hasn't happened to me for ages.. - maybe not the last 20 years ? -

It's amazing.. and incredible

Roast

I felt like being Roasted on fire.

Back then, in my teenage.

Feeling like roasted endlessly on a heated iron plate above fire

Like you were

Back then..

I've never told you this before