When the winter starts, the darkness is invited to fill my void

Darkness becomes my friend.

It's been always by my side,

since the winter started,

like my old friend.


It will stay

until I wipe it out forever.

but I don't even know

if the day will come either.


Depression stays by my side

when I have a moment of " void ",

it's always invited to fill

my space in between

my darkness and brightness.


Darkness becomes my old friend,

and it will stay by my side,

maybe, forever ..

Winter Fairies

寒くて暗い、

冬は嫌い。


Some says

they love winter,

but I don't.


It's just cold and dark to me.


Some believes

there are Winter Fairies,

but they don't bring me a happiness

in the darkness either.


だから、

寒くて暗い、

冬は嫌い。


'Cause Winter Fairies doesn't exist for me..

Rainy Sunday

Rainy Sunday

can be a

Gloomy Sunday.


It might rain all day today.


Water falls on the ground

like a cascade

And people call it " rain "

like someone said

in a film.


Rainy Sunday

can be a

Gloomy Sunday.


but it's not that bad

after all.

I can feel that

spring will come

after this.


Rainy day all day

is not that bad

after all.

I can feel

the spring light will arrive

after all.


Rainy Sunday

can be just before

a rainbow will bridge in the sky.

and a sunny spell

will show up

in between the winter clouds.


I just wait for the

spring to come

ahead of me..

Daily Routine ..

It's all coming back to normal,

to my daily routine.

I'm feeling so fine.


Life is going back to normal

like wheels are turning

as an engine has started.


People are rushing to the station,

I'm watching them

as they pass by

as usual.


The Human Race,

going back to normal.

And my heart starts to beat again

to continue my life.


The Daily Routine,

I love that.


It makes me feel

that I'm still alive

and my life is not over yet.


So that I don't need to worry about

small things any more..


Just concentrate on the moment

I'm living in.

Life is not that bad after all.


Being in the stream,

I'm still feeling so fine,

and it makes me feel so alive


There's no need to worry about

the things aren't in front of me

any more.


Just let the thing be as it's seen..

don't need to exaggerate any longer.


Let me be in the daily stream,

I'm just feeling so fine.

When the stars fall on the ground, they lose their hearts.

When stars fall on the ground

they just become

heartless lights.


And when there are too many people,

you feel lonelier

than being in the middle of nowhere.


I'm watching out

people passing by

from the window pane.

They look too busy on their own matters

and having no time to waste.

They're all in a rush

to beat the others

as if those were all whores.


They need to be in a stream,

not to be an outsider.

Just scare to be outside of the circle

and they are going around the same places,

not be outside as a loser.


This is a cruel world,

nobody really cares what you do.

You either beat them or are beaten,

eat them or are eaten,

or even kill them or are killed.


Me,

I just don't want to be eaten by those people,

and question to myself

" What is that for in the end ? "


When the stars fall on the ground,

they all lose their hearts

in Big Cities.

Going around the circle, like being in a circus ..

It's funny.

A life is like that.


I've got a funny feeling

when I watch

people going around the circle,

like they are in circus.


Maybe people are all like that

on basis.

Like animals in circus

pretend like they are funny and happy.


People are dancing in the circle,

following from one to another

with same happy faces

disguising like clowns.


They just want to be part of the circus

not to be an odd one

People think that person is a clown,

but maybe they are the real clowns.


People are going around the circle

like the Earth spins and draws a circle

We are all in a cage of Earth orbit

like being animals in cages in circus.


They just don't realize it

or just pretending ? ..


- After watching the scene from 8 1/2 by Federico Fellini -

When the world starts to fall..

My world starts to fall,

I feel so suffocated

with " vagues " of memories

and drowned.


When my world starts to fall,

all the stars in the sky

start to fall as well.

They're all falling to the ground

and there's no star in the sky anymore.

People took all the stars,

bring them to the Earth,

and they all become artificial lights

without hearts.


When there are too many people on Earth,

there are no stars in the sky anymore

without any tears' drops.


So nobody really cares what you do.