Just a small wish for my next life

No worries,

there is no one who hurt me anymore.


But still my memories strangle me.

That was my father.


And the tragedy of my mother

still affects in my life.


All of my family and relatives are cursed.

I mean, most of them.


I hope it will go away one day

without taking my life away.


That is the invisible scar

on my wrist.


They are lifted

when I have nothing else to do

or especially during the happiest time for families,

the holiday seasons

and also around my birthday.

They are not the happiest time at all.

In fact, it is the worst time of the year

with lots of suffering in me.


Will I be able to have happier moments

while I still live ?


Or is it better to save it for my next life

to wish for

when I'll be reborn ?


This is such a small wish for that

" I want to be happy "

or " happier person " within an ordinary family

without any violence.


Will I be able to make it come true one day ? ..

I really make a wish for it.